remembering.....

A few days ago, i was sleeping in the middle of the day. (Because I work nights, I don't sleep at night very well.) I had a beautiful dream!
I dreamed that I was in a most lovely place on earth-my grandparents front yard. You see, their yard over looks a deep valley and the hills sort of rise out the the mist in the morning, and greet you with a kind of eternal beauty hard to match elsewhere. And in the winter, they have the best view of snow covered bluffs anywhere except perhaps right on the Mississippi.
In my dream, I was running across the yard yelling out "Grandma! Grandma!" and she was standing in her door way smiling at me. As I got closer she said in her sing song way "I have cookies....." I must have been about 10 years old. The grass was so very very green and her smile was so very genuine, as my grandma always is. Her smile was like it is supposed to be.
Then I woke up.
All of a sudden I am 32 again and my grandparents don't live there anymore and my grandma is in the nursing home dying of cancer.

I cried.